This was taken moments after I got told that they’re going with another candidate.
I’m not mad. Not mad at the employer for choosing someone who better fit their criteria and not mad at me for trying (again).
I’m just getting tired. Jaded. Fatigued. I’ve been at this for years.
Not weeks. Not months. Years.
I’ve had interview after interview, signed up at temp agency after temp agency, dropped off resumes everywhere from large corporations to smaller retail positions. Finding a job costs the unemployed person money that they don’t have (and at this point, is beginning to cost me my self esteem).
For instance, I’ve borrowed more than enough money from family to put gas in my car so I can drive the distances, put coins in the meters to park my car, bought thrift store finds that hopefully make me look professional, and a quick coffee or snack to refuel when I felt like I could reward myself for an interview-gone-well.
And still, nothing. Not enough experience, too much experience, the other candidates had exactly what they were looking for…I could go on. As much as I am trying to be positive, as much as I’m not giving up (I don’t have an option, ps), and as much as I keep pushing the resumes out the door, ya gotta admit this is getting a bit ridiculous.
Like, who did I piss off in my previous life?